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[17 Apr 2003|03:04pm] |
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Still bored at my dads...i'm so bored i'm actually doing my World History work for Sykes!..hehe...he'll be surprised..:)...i think i know why David is avoiding me...I'm pretty sure i wrote him an email on friday that told him i loved him...woops...i was trashed friday, and i was bitching out people online and...well...i wrote him that email...i didn't mean it...i was drunk...i didn't mean it...did I?
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[16 Apr 2003|05:47pm] |
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I don't know what i've done, but i'm sorry...
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| Am I the one that's going crazy? |
[16 Apr 2003|05:32pm] |
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*sigh* what in the hell is going on?..i wrote David like, three times...i think he's avoiding me...i bet i did something stupid again...next thing i know, he's going to send me one of those cruel 'I don't like you anymore, but i'm going to bitch you out and tell you that, then say lets be friends' emails...like i haven't gotten a million of those from him...why do guys have to be so goddamn complicating?..and they always complain that we're the complicating ones...what in the hell?!?I mean, 1st I fuck this shit up with Jeff, now i think David hates me again...next I know, Bon is going to hate me...*sigh*...ah hell...i have got to get out of this house...not that i don't love my dad...it's just...whatever...i'll call laura...she can come pick me up and save me!..hehe...i'll go have a cig so i don't kill anyone else today :)
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| I want a lover i don't have to love... |
[15 Apr 2003|01:01pm] |
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...I want to know what they think of me...i know i judge people the second i look at them...it is human nature to judge...so what do people think of me?..do they think they're better than me?..b/c oftentimes, they are...i'm not worth much...it's like those girls, who are always saying they're fat, when really they're like, paper thin...if they think that they are fat, what in the hell do they think of me?..i must be a goddamn whale!!!i hate this image obsessed culture...moreover, i hate that i am a part of it...a living, breathing, working part...i buy into the perfect image as quickly as the next chick...i hate that i'm not thin...i hate that i'm not beautiful...no, i hate that they don't think i'm beautiful...i hate that i don't think i'm beautiful...i hate that i listen to what they tell me and believe it's true...how does it feel to hate yourself?
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| fuck your heart... |
[15 Apr 2003|12:23pm] |
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bleh...this spring break is turning out pretty shitty...grr...i've still got that stupid stomach flu that i've had for the past two weeks...plus i'm stuck at my dad's all week...better than last year tho...at least after this spring break i know i won't be going to court...anyway...only a few more days left...*sigh*
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[11 Apr 2003|08:32pm] |
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yeah...wow, i have a journal now...thanxxx sammy!..i'm super bored...so i don't have anything to write...but thats ok...i'm write later...bye
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Bright Eyes - Sunrise, sunset. |
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this is now kae's journal.
go away.
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